Me & Writing!

“I am participating in the Writing Contest: How Writing Has Positively Influenced My Life. Hosted by Positive Writer.” –

I started writing even before I was 5 or was it 3 or perhaps younger?

You might ask why, or even more puzzling … how?

I had a really really good memory.

Maybe not photographic, but I remembered pages say from a 4th grade science book or a 3rd grade history of our nation~!

Even into high school and college I wrote so many memories. I did however have another lapse in high school after I discovered girls were pretty neat and my writing suffered a bit.

About girls. They were confusing and often, I felt not to be trusted. You know, with telling you they liked you and then you’d see them making out with … you get the idea … bummer!

Some of the girls confessed to me, of all people, that they experienced things like that too with guys! I can’t imagine. No kidding! If I said something then that was that (pretty much).

However, if it had been on paper I could have crumpled it up and maybe even burned it! I wanted to do that a lot back then and even today sometimes.

I had a tough time even when I was young with some of my writing. Oh well.

It sucks when you can’t erase it! I mean really really sucks! Sorry, bad word around my grandkids! ( I get told that a lot)

At a very early age however, I did start to write on paper and once I started I couldn’t stop. It always felt better doing it on paper … on paper I could change the endings. I could erase and change.

On paper I could write a whole ‘nother story that ended with a happy ending that didn’t hurt anyone! Maybe some of the stories on paper could help someone escape the bad parts … you know add hope to their writing?

This erasing thing added so much to all my writing as I grew!

Nevertheless, I cried for a bit like when I was younger because someone told me you’re lying! Talk about hurt. I didn’t lie. I just wanted to be a good boy.

Not a lot to ask for I thought and so I prayed. I prayed some more and then some more. You know what? I discovered that erasing changes how I looked at things. I could at last find good in stuff that I wrote! Even though much of it was bad I could erase it and look at it from a whole new direction! Yupper! Erasing let me change my attitude and find hope and a new dream from hurts left behind.

Erasing let me move forward to change my future and helped to give me courage to challenge so many fears I had.

That’s how writing has helped me find a better future and life, even when it has seemed so dark!

Rick =)

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This post is a contest entry for the Positive Writer. I enjoy them and wish for more time. They have helpful things for me and maybe for some of my readers now and later! Now hopefully I can link this!?!?

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Almost Two Weeks!

May 24, 2015

HELP!!!!

I last published or sent my last work out around Mother’s day – the title of the last blog. It wasn’t what I had planned, which you know already if you read it!

I wanted to get into what I will cover today. It’s a selfish interest at first look, but I hope and believe it will be for your benefit more. I need to get to a point where I can handle the tech part much more easily (like I used to). I used to program and teach programs and software from Apple to Microsoft. My job at the local BOCES is what gave me the idea initially and the confidence that people would pay for what I knew.

This all stemmed from being the “go to” guy for everyone that knew me … I was the forerunner of Google! I read a lot – emphasis on a lot!!!

Over the years my knowledge extended to many things like how to use ebay and later craigslist along with word processing software and more! I was pretty good, but now … I don’t like the details so much. I move better and understand more of the ‘whole picture’! I came to hate programming

Studied physics and then mechanical engineering and electrical via high school (except not so much after I discovered girls!). I have always been a helper or having a gift of helping. Others have seen it and told me I should take better care so I can help others!

They have a point!

After my recent April marathon I said I was going to get pics on my blog and maybe figure out how to separate them. I have been working too slowly in my opinion but my son who is working with me tells me to take it step by step or 1 step at a time. I know he’s right of course, but I am still too impatient even after all these years!

What’s next?

Two things really!

Should I get photos from places like creative commons or use ones that I have had for decades? What do you think? Remember it is extra work and I am only one person and the precise reason I am not further ahead than I am!

I will continue to work on placing pics to make it all more enjoyable for all of us. As it comes together I can concentrate on more matters that apply to each of you. There’s no reason to go through life being gullible as I have. Remember my motto to “Question Everything…”.

I hope to lead the way discovering and revealing information to help each and everyone of you how to avoid wasting time, money, energy and protecting yourself in ways you haven’t thought of nor have I!

Years ago, the Commissioner of patents ( Charles H. Duell) said in effect that everything that has been invented has been invented! He hadn’t heard of Steve Jobs yet and others! I want to work in finding truth that will help everyone and myself in the process!

By the way, here’s a fact that I have believed for at least 25 years or more. Everything is not digitized and too much is missing already. It’s going to be missed forever if we rely only on transcribing electronically to save it all! We need to keep books and memories as they are irreplaceable!

I mention this as it has been later found that Mr. Duell didn’t say what he is credited with. Someone else found something in a 1899 comedy magazine attributing it to a JOKE in this magazine! Yet Google couldn’t find any reference to the above prior to 1980. Oh oh!

Things are being increasingly lost. So much of my education came from the Library of Congress whether by brown photocopies (way back when) or other means afforded a young student! Most often it was to verify items like Camillus , NY was the birthplace of the Republican Party! I can attest to that!

Help me to find someone that can offer help for me to move forward! I believe we will all benefit! Yea!!!

Oh, I will keep asking for help so that I can return in kind, to you all!

Blessings to you all! Rick =)

PS I wrote a couple weeks ago and couldn’t / forgot to publish … health and such – sorry 🙁

PSS I apologize for being so self serving and I really do hope it will be of benefit for a great many! Thanks! Rick =)

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May 10, 2015 – Mother’s Day

Today just happens to be Mother’s Day and I was unaware. I knew I just had to write about something important (I think) and now it wouldn’t be right not say a bit about Mother’s Day.

I heard on a TV program recently (Blue Bloods I think) that Valentines day was made up just to sell more greeting cards and so on. I believe it’s just a popular saying, but it’s truth (Valentines day) has a richer history. I suggest you check it out!

Another saying I heard is that Father’s Day has the most collect calls of all the holidays with Mother’s Day coming in second. You can verify this on snopes. It kinda makes me sad to tell you this. No , I don’t have any answer as to why.
(http://www.snopes.com/holidays/fathersday/collect.asp)

One of the commandments is honor thy mother and thy father and for the most it should be as such. There are mothers and fathers that perhaps never heard that before, If they did, they didn’t question why. When working as a case worker for the county I discovered a great many who were unaware or didn’t care. I can tell you stories upon stories and I have my own as I was growing up as well.

I had to stop there as in my heart I recalled so many horrible things I witnessed or had to deal with and that went into my life from the past.

I was going to write about that.

I felt a large loud voice saying ‘You can’t’! (and then I stopped writing) It was strong enough to stop my own thinking. It was in my head?

I then had thoughts that there are good and bad in everything and you know that!

I stopped writing here and haven’t come back until now. No kidding.

It’s a Sunday later so this was started on Mother’s day and the original reason for the post is lost for now but it will come back again. I’m positive.

How my understanding of one of the commandments started to make sense came in a discussion with someone (don’t recall who) that said … you do know that it was for good moms and dads! They should be honored shouldn’t they? I said I didn’t know. That was many years ago after my wife died. I wish I had come to that full understanding long before that! Here are a few stories although certainly not happy to me, but important to understand why we now celebrate a happy mothers or fathers day.

I was young when many of these things happened and even in my early teens as I was gullible and still am! Later it was my wife Connie who protected me often in understanding by showing me … !

My grandmother was my whole world up until she died when I was 11. She always held me each night very tightly and coerced many others into giving me anything I wanted or needed regardless of the cost. She managed to turn the whole immediate family into a system of chaos starting with her children. Her husband (my grandfather) never mattered nor was he ever loved! She told him that on the afternoon of her death.

Looking back and hearing and discovering many more things some became clearer and others more confused.

Her son Billy could do no wrong and he got everything including the collie he wanted. My mother was to be abused and told what she did was of little value. I can’t verify this but my mother came to be disabled as a teen resulting from actions of my grandmother. My mother did do many awesome things but it was too late for her. Maybe from the start!

For example, she won a national contest put on by Hughes aircraft! She drew concepts of new jet aircraft and super aircraft to transport men and other designs as I understood ( She was a great artist I discovered). She was given a new 1944 – 5 (?) Pontiac I believe with all the trimmings. There was also a cash prize and a great job with great money ( no one could remember). She got to meet with Mr. Hughes and was put in with the senior designers and more out in LA. He (Mr. Hughes) got her a place for her to stay and I guess even paid for it as well ( it was for a year to start until she could settle in ) Can you imagine being a 19 or 20 year old!?!? She could have been set but grandma stayed and stayed for weeks. She began to call in every day to talk to Doris (mother’s name) which didn’t go over well at the plant I’m sure. Grandma’s manipulation finally got Mr Hughes to help her get home ( of course with my mother) and the result was she sold the car and got two train tickets to Syracuse and took her mother back. Grandma was great at laying guilt. I remember that! Mom never got back as she was needed to help Billy (her brother) get ahead and more. Billy was more important! Mom became a concierge for Hotel Syracuse for many years. Nevertheless she never got back to that job in LA. Dad said she cried about that for too many years!

I got into this as a couple examples of the many things her mother did to her. One more that at least had some humor in it as relayed by my grandfather.

It started out to begin with that Grandma (her mother) said she had to go along with her to protect her ‘precious’ daughter. Mom had an uncle that she was close to out in Albuquerque NM. It was on the way to Los Angeles Calif.

That night, Mom stayed much longer than she had planned at Uncle Albert’s. Grandma didn’t go for a number of reasons I was told. For many years later my grandfather would tell me things he felt I should probably know. Truth was important to him and guessing that is where I got the basis from.

This is one story that I found funny too though it was awhile before I really understood! Apparently, while she was gone grandma had plans to manipulate things into what she wanted and to hell with everyone else! My grandfather related that his daughter was to come back by 7 or 8 PM. When my mom got back here my grandma had a rope from the ceiling and a chair below it set up. The short story is grandma fell asleep and mom came home to discover that scene! My Dad (grandfather) said he could imagine every time she would hear a car grandma would jump up on the bed and get ready .. He figured she probably did that a couple dozen times which made him laugh! I know I did!

My mother was a piece of crap to her mother. The only one that mattered was Billy and he could do no wrong! Sadly she carried on that behavior with me. I think you get the idea. That was always a touchy point with me about honoring parents and I had many! I always felt guilty and believed I was committing close to what would be a MORTAL SIN if I even thought to not honor! God was going to turn me into a bucket of crispy chicken!

Then at 11, although I was traumatized with grandma’s death I began to feel I was free … no kidding! I also felt guilty for another 20 years!

Life is not easy and before you say I knew that — stop! We assume everyone had a good mother and / or father because … ! This world is broken as are all of us at times, so to speak!

I have gone this route (not planned) to remind all of us that not all of us are so lucky. If we had a mother that we wish to take time out to spend with her (dad on father’s day) then consider it a huge prayer that God answered yes to! Celebrate! Rick =)

PS. You’re allowed to do this 8 or 10 times a week if you want to! It will help to relieve some of the false guilt you have for snitching cookies – but she knew anyway!

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April 28, 2015 Tuesday – My Son…

is one of my most important persons in the world, as are my other children. Jesus was God’s most important person to Him. Let face it that people are all that’s important in this world and they all are or can be Awesome! That’s what I and everyone else in this awesomization nation Facebook group are or have been discovering.

I believe what many of us have discovered thus far can be expanded upon. Perhaps we can find additional like voices and we can all grow even more. What do you think?

All of us have many gifts and talents that we might share to help build a forum of like minded people that will and can help ourselves and others! Really!

I have benefitted from this exercise immensely. I did this out of selfishness. Yes you heard that correctly.

It’s ok to be selfish. You’ve all heard these statements that if you don’t take care of yourself no one will. More importantly if you start to fail in business or in your health and so on you can’t help someone else. That’s very very true.

In fact, I’m going to be asking Nicole for help for me and it will be also for her since I came to this by her putting this month forward or out there for us all!

Check out https://www.facebook.com/groups/1544044082529084/ The Awesomization Nation on facebook .. I think you can get in there by asking to be allowed. I can recommend it with full confidence. It may or may not be the time for you but read what others are finding for themselves. Please let me know your thoughts as I am interested!

Sending many blessings to you all today! Rick

PS. Sorry I didn’t post yesterday. Wrote it early and forgot (first time ever). Right! LOL

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April 27, 2015 Monday – What …

matters most today? Pick one thing! Just one thing that’s first on your mind, list or heart!

We didn’t sleep well last night or at least I sure didn’t! I sleep around a lot! One night I sleep with fear of the overdue taxes … not just IRS but we’re 18 months behind in property taxes too!

How was your night? Your daughter is facing a heart surgery and your wife’s biopsy came back positive. Thank God you got a raise coming.

Some people have that many things going on and others more! Face it we all have a lot on our plate and it paralyzes me!

After awhile does your health start to give you problems too? I’m not telling you anything new and I don’t like anyone telling me anything so what am I doing!? I don’t know?

You don’t know me really but I care … really I do care and I am able to as I sense too many things. I have also been there. I am a real person and you can email me or call me if you have trouble deciding what matters most. I promise – just email me or call. I will be available.

If I have already left and gone on ahead … I’m told Jesus’ number is in Jeremiah 33:3 … He’s available 24/7 too! How about you? Who needs you today?

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April 26, 2015 Sunday-Thanks for little things

Today is a day I have spent mostly praying and not because it’s Sunday. Maybe a little more as I’m tired today . I do it everyday as we all should be doing to my way of thinking. God’s a pretty good friend to have. Who better!

Within the last year another church member came up to me and told me I was a friend of God and then walked away ( I still don’t know who he was). However, I had just finally finished Ray Stedman’s Friend of God. It was about Abraham and I can recommend it highly! If you have a best friend you talk with them every day and I think it’s no different with God. Sorry, I got off track … the little things yes?

Today I have been also thinking about the little things we ignore including the chores or whatever. Have you done that lately and then forgot about it? Ultimately they add up and cause us to be uneasy, fearful and we don’t know why!

Probably, we’ve all got 50 or a 100 things we mean or need to do … later. We forget, but they’re still there and add up. They slow us down and can ultimately stop us from doing our best. It’s not just people that can nag!

So I am going to keep cleaning the bathroom and hope to finish tonight. Send a letter to my son. Take a shower since it’s 6 PM on Sunday and I need to get dressed! Write the rest of today’s post. Order some new socks that don’t have holes in them. I have written very little on my book since I have been posting this month. Figuring I’d get to it except I haven’t. Finish my exercises as they aren’t done for the day. Send love to you all. Pray for my kids and their children. Can you think of other little things you need to catch up on?

Yup! Thank you Jesus for all the little things as they are my awesome legacy. What makes up your awesomeness? Blessings to you all too! Rick =)

PS – After this I will be going back to my old posts to add pics finally. Maybe I can find out how to make links purple or blue so you can get to where I’m telling you about easier?!

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April 24, 2015 Friday – Why Kitty?

I received news (sad) from a good acquaintance today … her name is Brittany. She, her husband and their 3 girls are sailing in the Caribbean or thereabouts.

I received her post from their website and it was about a tragic accident. I’ll let her tell you about Kitty

So many questions when tragedy strikes and there are thousands daily all over the world and always the questions why?

I hope this will answer the question most often asked. “How can God or whoever allow things like this? The answer is free will I think.

The second most often asked question or statement is Why did God or whoever do this to such a good family? My God doesn’t do evil and otherwise refer to question 1.

You see, after Adam and Eve betrayed God’s trust we were on our own since we bought the lie that we could know everything and always be right! Sadly we keep buying the same lie and fail to realize that we need help. None of us can do it alone.

We all need help so I am asking all of you to pray for Kitty’s family for help in finding peace and hope! I will join you and I thank you.

Jesus loves and always welcomes children as many of you know! In fact He wishes we could all become more like children and run to Him anytime we need help for anything.

By the way, I ask why too just like you! Every time! Then I pray. Thanks for stopping by…Rick

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April 20, 2015 – Fear of the Lord?

I think this will be short (always my goal but seldom obtained).

Fear of the Lord … of God! The Lord’s anger taken out on Adam and Eve to the destruction during the Exodus and only a part of it! Sermons of Fire and Brimstone and more!

Some pretty scary stuff! We don’t respond to ‘nice’ really well, and in fact we ignore it more often than not. Like we deserve everything. We as human beings don’t take nice things seriously. Did we listen to our parents and what happened … ? We wished we had.

Fear of the Lord that any second He could suddenly appear and we’d all be crispy critters!

Now that gets our attention! Still we forget pretty quickly after it doesn’t happen and I think that’s foolish. Our parents (godly) who have spent their whole lives in raising, providing for us still don’t get the credit they deserve and are often hurt over and over.

Fear of the Lord comes down to a simple thing like with our parents. We love our parents and don’t want to disappoint them for anything finally, but … God loves us more! How much more should we Fear disappointing Him!

Thanks for listening and God Bless. Now that’s Awesome! Rick =)

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April 19, 2015 Sunday – Can you …

Hear me now!

I didn’t go out of the apartment at all today. Exercised, but never took a shower. Finished an addendum to an appeal after discovering new evidence. Exercised a bit more and it’s almost morning and I feel like I have taken a half bottle of IB profen my gut hurts so bad and my body isn’t co-operating.

It’s 5 AM Monday and I haven’t done this in many years but I had to get a few things caught up by today! Not really but they did keep standing in my way of moving forward.

Lately I have felt I can’t fight anymore. I figure it’s hit you at one time or another as well. When it happens and you’re in the present you push through no matter what! Still it’s always a choice. That choice can contribute to or take away from awesomeness! What choices will affect you today.

Can you hear the voice of your God? I’ve been practicing that for years trying to hear the voice of my God. It’s only this last decade that I figured out really what Paul meant to pray without ceasing … . That goes along with hearing God’s voice. Recognizing it to hear Him is the trick!

You know your brother’s or sister’s or mother’s voice and of course your kids and wife and so on. Why? Because you communicate with them daily for the whole day at times!

The more I have spoken with God the more I think I could hear Him talking back to me – Praying is another word for talking. I’ve been told I talk too much, but God has never told me or indicated I pray too much. I wish I had figured that out sooner since it seems so simple and helpful to me now.

Now I hear Him more and more often a couple times a day. Some people call it a hunch or intuition and the like. It may be , but when it’s Him things happen. Yesterday, I kept having a need to go back and ask this person walking if they needed a ride? It wouldn’t stop until I said Ok and turned around and then I ‘felt’ better. I did meet up with them back at the corner. It was a wonderfully spirited woman with short black hair and slight build. At first he/she was walking along as a good pace with a white cane. They were blind I figured, but they appeared quite capable. Many disabled don’t like to be singled out, but after awhile it’s ok. I know this because I have been disabled on and off for 3 decades. Part of the reason I didn’t act right away. Bottom line is it was a good conversation and she was amazed I had stopped. She said it was so nice and brightened her spirits. She has no family other than her daughter who went back south to finish her last semester at college. The long and short of it is we connected and I made myself available to help out if and when she needed it. She thanked me for the offer but said it was nice to get out and walk in the nice weather after having such a long winter. I agreed and I left her my number and we’ll talk again I am sure! I have to tell you that is awesome and it’s not the first time!

Try it out and see what can happen when you find your self following a strong hunch or intuition … it just might be your God trying to talk to you! Wouldn’t that be awesome for you! I hope it happens soon!

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April 16, 2015 Thurs – We need happy!

Well, most of us made it through Tax Day! It’s a day filled with dread, massive worry, and the what am I going to do!?!? In a word … Fear. It doesn’t have to be. We all have choices.

We need more happy. We need lots more happy and I am the worst example. I see hurts to be bandaged, and sadness to be alleviated, children to be rescued and so much more! My wife and I shared those interests up until she went home to be with Jesus the summer of ‘96.

She was my go to when I needed to lift my spirits. She might suggest work on my cars or in the workshop. She’d say go sing along with one of my tapes or go for walk up in the hills! That was 20 years ago. I don’t do any of that only rarely. I get caught up with life – good or bad! We all do and sadly it’s toward the negative usually.

A friend mentioned this to me about 2 weeks ago and I agreed and been thinking about it. We all need HAPPY!

Sing a song. Visit a grandchild. Go up to the lake. Go to Facebook. You name it for you … but do it. However, everything needs to be in moderation. I’m all work and no play! I have been called dull and boring at times but don’t tell anyone!

This morning I got up and saw or rather heard “Everyone is Lonely”. It made me happy! Are you different too? Funny how and when happiness appears. Here’s a link to that via Huffington.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2014/09/22/everyone-is-lonely-fox-adhd_n_5862156.html

It impressed me to the point of finding out who sang it as the voice made the happy part and her name is Liz Beebe. https://www.youtube.com/user/BeebeLiz .

She also sings with the Dustbowl Revival! A group I believe will become a top ten at least here in the US! I have a knack for that.

http://www.dustbowlrevival.com/#!sights/cypa Check out their newest song “Whiskey in the Well” from SF! There’s more videos there too!

Liz is the lead singer there and she is in other groups. I think a very talented young woman to watch! Check her out! https://www.backstage.com/LizBeebe/

I believe you will see the awesomness growing up all around her! It needs to be watered is all.

Hope I helped you to smile today and take a break … Look up and look around … Tomorrow’s Friday and for most it means a break so prepare! Love you all! Rick =)

http://laughingsquid.com/a-cute-animation-by-adhd-that-reminds-us-all-to-be-nice-because-everyone-is-lonely/ in case the other doesn’t link up! =)

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